Himadri

Hey Himadri,

I love youuuu. And I miss you. I miss eating with you, I miss walking around the garden with you, I miss that drive. Everything we used to do together — I miss all of it.

What you're going through right now is so hard. It's hard for me to even imagine, and I can't stop thinking about how difficult it must be to actually live it. But you are strong enough for this. You're stronger than anyone I know. So please don't lose hope. You will face it, and one day it will be behind you and you'll be free to chase the life you actually want.

Maybe right now none of that feels motivating, and that's okay. Trust me anyway — you'll find your purpose. There's still so much time.

You're the most amazing person I've ever met, Himadri. The funniest, too. And even on your worst days, you never stop caring about me.

I care about you. About what's happening in your life, about how you're feeling. That hasn't changed for a second.

And I'm sorry for these past days — for going quiet when you needed me, for not understanding what you were dealing with, for not saying any of this properly sooner. I'm working on it.

Always yours.